Feeling abandoned rejected & much alone, nights have come & gone since you left to set off on your journey without me, A dark hole fills my space not knowing day from night night from day, it is all one day! searching & asking "why", eyes that are swollen with tears, my loved one where is she i wounder is she safe? The pain i carry is of mine & her`s, LOST, can i ever find peace the way she found peace, my journey in life has no meaning no answers can i find yet i must be strong for if i were to leave this world my memory`s of you will be no moor. I must be strong & fight on to keep you alive within me, for my memory`s will take me to new days & new horizons, Reaching the end of your lonely journey i cant help but to wounder that my journey to recovery is from your guidance to my life & have become my guardian angel, for you do not want to see me in sorrow or pain. You wish only for my happiness & not to grieve, for my life has a purpose a purpose to enjoy once again, to feel loved to feel love, is this what you want of me my love "i ask", my heart feels lighter my head not so intense, Now i understand your presence around me!!!